Melancholy

I used to be okay,
I used to be strong.
But the walls around me crumbled,
And my life became wrong.
The lies crept in on silent feet.
Poisoning my neurotic mind,
Slowly wrapping me in defeat.
I lied when I said I didn’t love you.
I lied when I said I could move on.
I lied when I said you didn’t matter,
And I lied when I said it didn’t hurt.
You were the catalyst,
Detroying everything in sight.
You broke me down,
And I was too weak to fight.
Now you are gone,
Yet your corrosive effect remains.
I await within my insanity to see you again,
For my blood to race and my heart stop.
I’m just dying for you to get on top.
Own me, control me, violate me.
End the aching and just…
Take me for all I can be.
I surrender myself completely;
Mind, body, and soul.
But you had your chance,
And my weakened morals were worth nothing.
It was simply a meaningless, tormenting dance.
What you still want, I shall never know.
But I would wait for you till the end of eternity,
If only you would tell me so.

Found a reason

“I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you”

Stars Join Us

Sitting, alone, darkness consumes.
No one can see the girl.
With bright eyes.
And one curl.

She’s almost saddened by this.
Her most extrordinary show.
It will go unnoticed.
No one will know.

Till they find her limp body.
Alone in her bed.
The lost memories.
Of the life she’d led.

She wanted to see the pain.
The blood drip from her wrist.
Because she had aimed for her goals.
She aimed, and she missed.

She wants to swallow the peace.
Feel the freedom spread through her veins.
Find an everlasting love.
Take away her pains.

She wants to die alone.
The same way she was always found.
Alone with herself.
No other soul around.

And as she got ready.
She turned out the lights.
To die in the darkness.
To escape all life’s frights.

But when the lights went out.
Some magic occured.
The room lit up.
And a memory was stirred.

She recalled a day.
She’d been talking with a friend.
Talking about life.
How much she wanted it to end.

But her friend said no.
She said I love you.
And you know it.
The stars join us two.

No matter where you are.
When you can see the sky.
Glance at the stars.
And reconcider why.

Why do you want to die?
Where has your meaning gone?
Will it be refound?
Will it rise with suns dawn?

If you have any question.
If you know it could.
Then please hold on.
You know that you should.

Because I love you.
My love is in the star.
It is always in my heart.
Whether near or far.

So when the lights went out.
And you saw the glow.
You knew that those lit up stars.
Were your reason not to go.

So you sat back in bed.
Put the knife aside.
Recapped the pills.
And thought how you almost died.

How you almost gave up.
How you based your life on your past.
Knowing full well.
That the past will never last.

So as you lay there that night.
With a refound hope in your heart.
You knew you could find.
A way to restart.

Your life will start now.
It will be based on stars.
Your past will not matter.
Nor will engraved scars.

Because you love’s in the stars.
And stars never die.
So if you ever question.
That’s your reason why.

Loneliness and togetherness…

You and I are both lonely,
Lost in our own worlds,
Trying to find ourselves,
Trying to find each other.
A sweet dream it would be,
To awaken in your arms,
To be able to kiss your lips,
To have such a precious gift.

I yearn for your company,
Though we are lost in what to do,
Lost in our own worlds,
Let us be lost together.

Take my hand and bid farewell
To confusion and the loneliness,
You and I will finally be one,
Living within our own sweet love.

Direction

I used to feel fine
you were to be mine
I need direction
to take me to you

Honest poetry

I’m sick of this
I’ve been a puppet on your string for too long
You don’t own me
I’m tired of being strong for you
Now
I’m doing it for me
And if I wanna break down
That’s what I’m gonna do.

You kept telling me to stay quiet
Take a back seat
Hold everyone else together
What about me?
Watching everyone fall apart around me
Couldn’t join in
Just watching it all crumble
A lone pillar in the metaphorical destruction

Arguing over petty shit
A car door is metal
There are more important things
Like life
Health
And family
But you don’t seem to care
Don’t tell me to shut up

For the past month
That’s all I’ve done.

Silence from me on the outside
But inside
Nothing but noise
Anger
Destruction
Collapse
Fear
Pain

Watch my façade
It won’t last long
Its getting old
Watch it crumble like the rest of this fucked up situation

Pain?
Pills numb the pain.
But that’s not the answer

I’m in a cyclone speed mental spiral

down
down
down

Need to find the brake before its too late

Too late

too late..

Words I Truely Love

We’re drifting apart,

But I won’t give up, no

Wherever you are I belong

Love sings us a song

But we fail to sing along

Wherever you go I will follow

So please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please
don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And
if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

You
try to be strong

You’ve tried it oh so long

Whatever I do I do it wrong

And love sings our song

So eager to sing along

Whatever you do I know it

So please don’t let it

Please
don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Don’t let go of life

Let
go of love

Let go of all we have

So
don’t let go of trust

Let go of lust

Let go of all we share

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know

The glorious art of staining souls, my darling

We
are not the ones to blame

The more we have the more we want

And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby

It
always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So
keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

When doubts arise the game begins

The one we will never win, my baby

It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s
alright

Come on…

So keep on pretending

Our
heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It
will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Just one look into your eyes

One look and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

Just one kiss and I’m alive

One kiss and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one touch and I’m on fire

One touch and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one smile and I’m wild

One smile and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

My darling

Oh you’re so beautiful

You’re so beautiful

Oh
my baby

You’re so beautiful

And you’re so beautiful

Oh
my darling

Oh my baby

And you’re so beautiful

it’ll be too late

I’m gonna simile like nothing’s wrong …
talk like everything is perfect …
act like its a dream …
and pretend nothing is hurting me …

’cause I’ll find my way..
I know you’ll wake up one day..
but it’ll be too late

The Upset

There seems to be an issue
Left unchecked and yet denied
A promise made without much thought
Now chained we must abide

Still you refuse to realize
The desperateness within my eyes
I wish a way, I wish to find
A safe way to leave you behind

My life would then be empty
For you complete what I am
But your life remains unfinished
While I keep you from His hand

You truely claim that you cannot
Remain to be happy, while I am not
Yet that’s the way that it must be
Since this won’t last because of me

Queries

How many times
Has it been
That you have given up
Everything

The love that you gained
Was it worth all the pain
Of letting go?

I’d like to feel
That what we have is real
Enough for me to do the same.

Don’t leave me lying here
Bedded in poisonous fear
That it’s not what we thought

Love can be misapprehension
So is it worth all this tension
For those moments of bliss?

I ask you these queries
In aim to calm my worries
That this is really love

How I’m Feeling

We were close friends, also lovers
did everything for one another
Now youre gone and Im lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me
Can you feel me
Hear me callin for you Cause its

Its been too long and Im lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said Ive been needinyou,
wantin you
Wonderin if youre the same and whos been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now Im sittin here thinkin âbout you
And the days we used to share
Its drivin me crazy, I dont know what to do
Im just wonderin if you still care
And I wanna let you know that its killin me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby

searching for you

i’ve been searching for you,
i heard a cry within my soul
i never had a yearning quite like this before
all of my life where have you been?
a sacred gift of heaven

True love

Love was always supposed to be
Something wonderful to me
To watch it grow inside yourself
To feel your heart beside itself
Sometimes it hurts to love so bad
Sometimes it hurts to even laugh
Sometimes the pain is just too much
And it hurts like hell
That’s the way it feels
True love
It has no hiding place
It’s not something you just put away
It’s always there inside of you
and it shows in everything you do
Sometimes it hurts to love so bad
Sometimes it hurts to even laugh
Sometimes the pain is just too much
And it hurts like hell
That’s the way it feels
I know if there is any chance
For us to find our happiness
We’ve got to learn to let it go
Forget all the pain we knew

Love Letter

Dearest Flower,

I want to thank you again for allowing me into your life and heart. You have given me the desires of my heart. all I’ve ever wanted was to love and feel that love returned. I have been to others that which I seeked, but it was not until you that the love I sought was felt. Your words touch me and bring me to tears just as thoughts of you fill my world with everlasting warmth.

How is it that you seemed so familiar to me when we have never even met? I fell in love with your words and eventually I fell in love with you, not knowing where things will lead. however, you my beloved knew what it was that you wanted, you were so sure…and because of your love, I now soar on the wings of love, my soul fed, my thirst quenched. I now have a love that I can call my own.

I LOVE YOU

It Would Be Different

I know how depressed you’ve been
And I know how sad you will remain
All you need is someone to hold you
All you want is someone to love
Someone who loves you too
I know all this and I know one more thing
That it would be different
If I was there
To hold you
To love you
I know it would be different
If I was there

It’s gonna be fine

You said goodbye but you can’t be out of sight
Although we never meet, but our memories will remain
You will be always far which is not bad for me
I don’t care if your body isn’t here.. but then It’s gonna be fine
Why would I want your love if it’s not yours
But my Love is mine which I like to keep for while… in this rest life
There is no formula or law which can take it away 

Wishing On A Star

I gaze up at the sky each night
and find the brightest star.
It’s always waiting there for me
so close, but yet so far.

The star winks in the evening sky
and reaches out to me.
It magically appears each night
for all the world to see.

I’ve wished upon this special star
my whole life through, it seems.
I’ve closed my eyes and made my wish
of hopes, and plans, and dreams.

And then, one day I got my wish
for I finally met you.
You are that someone special
who’s made all my dreams come true.

So now whenever we’re apart
I find that same bright star.
It makes me feel so close to you
no matter where you are.

Lovely thought

A lovely thought from a broken heart … “She laughs at my dreams, but I dream only of her laugher”

Missed Love

Why do people leave when they say they will stay? , Why do you love when they only go away? , Why do people forget the most important days? , Why do people laugh, when they really want to cry? , Why is it that when people leave they never say good bye.

You are perfect

I’ll never need any change in you as You’re so perfect
and the precious bond that we share is sooo perfect
though we are seperated by so many miles
though we know we may never meet
No one else in the world can even compare this Love
I can’t turn back time But With you I see present and future
as We are always togethor forever
You’ll know How perfect you are when seen through my eyes
I can wait for the fate to show you How lovely you are
You are that someone special & a true miracle to me
Across the oceans, mountain peaks, time and space
You kept my heart alive & love survive

Can you explain?

For what we need to apart?
If we love each other oh so hard.
Why we need to say goodbye?
Cos we have problems in our life?
You know, that I love you, as no one else can,
And you know, that I will love you till my end.
But you have to say goodbye…
and We both have to cry…

God, Can you explain me why?

Because of you

Because of you
my world is now whole

Because of you
love lives in my soul

Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes

Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes

You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.

My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you’ll always be mine.

At the altar
I will joyously say ‘I do’,
for I have it all now
and it’s all because of you.

by Amy S. Bedford

LOST OF LOVE

I have a dream
the dream of freedom
Freedom that seems not easy
not easy to face with in my life every day
Every day that made me weak
weak in facing all the things i have to say thank
Thanks on evey challenges
challenges that make my life moves
Moving on all moment happens
happens in every depeating moment of damns
Damns as i was called myself
Myself that was so unlift
Unlift on every dreams i want
want to be one for they might felt

Journey

I search for you
In every direction I take
What a journey I must make
A long road I’m sure
Just looking for a cure
A lonely journey some of us take

What road do I take
Will I make a mistake
A test of faith or my fate

I know your out there
I continue with faith
Hoping not to make a mistake
In the journey I take

Hope I did it ..

I asked God 2 Bless You
He did..
I asked him 2 love u ..
He did..
I askd him 2 make u happy ..
He deined and said..
u r here to make better..
Hope I did it ..