Foever Gone

rising as the somke
off my cigarette
comming up from the depths
of the coldest heart
lost in the wind that sweeps us away
my soul vanishes
into thin air
love gone
life belittled
gone forever never
form you again
to the end i’m gone
forever never again

Stars Join Us

Sitting, alone, darkness consumes.
No one can see the girl.
With bright eyes.
And one curl.

She’s almost saddened by this.
Her most extrordinary show.
It will go unnoticed.
No one will know.

Till they find her limp body.
Alone in her bed.
The lost memories.
Of the life she’d led.

She wanted to see the pain.
The blood drip from her wrist.
Because she had aimed for her goals.
She aimed, and she missed.

She wants to swallow the peace.
Feel the freedom spread through her veins.
Find an everlasting love.
Take away her pains.

She wants to die alone.
The same way she was always found.
Alone with herself.
No other soul around.

And as she got ready.
She turned out the lights.
To die in the darkness.
To escape all life’s frights.

But when the lights went out.
Some magic occured.
The room lit up.
And a memory was stirred.

She recalled a day.
She’d been talking with a friend.
Talking about life.
How much she wanted it to end.

But her friend said no.
She said I love you.
And you know it.
The stars join us two.

No matter where you are.
When you can see the sky.
Glance at the stars.
And reconcider why.

Why do you want to die?
Where has your meaning gone?
Will it be refound?
Will it rise with suns dawn?

If you have any question.
If you know it could.
Then please hold on.
You know that you should.

Because I love you.
My love is in the star.
It is always in my heart.
Whether near or far.

So when the lights went out.
And you saw the glow.
You knew that those lit up stars.
Were your reason not to go.

So you sat back in bed.
Put the knife aside.
Recapped the pills.
And thought how you almost died.

How you almost gave up.
How you based your life on your past.
Knowing full well.
That the past will never last.

So as you lay there that night.
With a refound hope in your heart.
You knew you could find.
A way to restart.

Your life will start now.
It will be based on stars.
Your past will not matter.
Nor will engraved scars.

Because you love’s in the stars.
And stars never die.
So if you ever question.
That’s your reason why.

Journey

” I’m walking slowly because I was once in a hurry
And I carry this smile because I’ve cried too much “

Last Goodbye

 Jeff Buckley – Grace (1994)

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it’s over
Just hear this and then i’ll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you’ll ever know

This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face
Why can’t we overcome this wall
Well, maybe it’s just because i didn’t know you at all

Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know it makes me so angry ’cause i know that in time
I’ll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye

Did you say ‘no, this can’t happen to me,’
And did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn’t know him at all
You didn’t know him at all, oh, you didn’t know

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memories
Offer signs that it’s over… it’s over

A Book of Memories

Hidden in the attic,
all the way upstairs,
is something very special,
that I would like to share.
My hopes,
my dreams,
old photographs,
of good times and bad times that make me laugh.
The joy of a hug,
the thrill of a kiss,
leaves me to remember the pure, simple bliss.
I cry for the fun,
and giggle for the pain,
I enjoyed the good life I was able to maintain.
The thoughts and wishes,
they all stay with me,
all of these contained in my book of memories.

Words I Truely Love

We’re drifting apart,

But I won’t give up, no

Wherever you are I belong

Love sings us a song

But we fail to sing along

Wherever you go I will follow

So please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please
don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And
if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

You
try to be strong

You’ve tried it oh so long

Whatever I do I do it wrong

And love sings our song

So eager to sing along

Whatever you do I know it

So please don’t let it

Please
don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Don’t let go of life

Let
go of love

Let go of all we have

So
don’t let go of trust

Let go of lust

Let go of all we share

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know

The glorious art of staining souls, my darling

We
are not the ones to blame

The more we have the more we want

And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby

It
always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So
keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

When doubts arise the game begins

The one we will never win, my baby

It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s
alright

Come on…

So keep on pretending

Our
heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It
will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Just one look into your eyes

One look and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

Just one kiss and I’m alive

One kiss and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one touch and I’m on fire

One touch and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one smile and I’m wild

One smile and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

My darling

Oh you’re so beautiful

You’re so beautiful

Oh
my baby

You’re so beautiful

And you’re so beautiful

Oh
my darling

Oh my baby

And you’re so beautiful

it’ll be too late

I’m gonna simile like nothing’s wrong …
talk like everything is perfect …
act like its a dream …
and pretend nothing is hurting me …

’cause I’ll find my way..
I know you’ll wake up one day..
but it’ll be too late

The Upset

There seems to be an issue
Left unchecked and yet denied
A promise made without much thought
Now chained we must abide

Still you refuse to realize
The desperateness within my eyes
I wish a way, I wish to find
A safe way to leave you behind

My life would then be empty
For you complete what I am
But your life remains unfinished
While I keep you from His hand

You truely claim that you cannot
Remain to be happy, while I am not
Yet that’s the way that it must be
Since this won’t last because of me

Empty Fire

Tonight’s a burning loneliness
Bleak and empty, cloudless above
The absence of the moon speaks
Of the absence of our love

The coldest of wind in the air
The darkest of black in the sky
Frigid and opaque, the adjectives
That aptly describe you and I

Queries

How many times
Has it been
That you have given up
Everything

The love that you gained
Was it worth all the pain
Of letting go?

I’d like to feel
That what we have is real
Enough for me to do the same.

Don’t leave me lying here
Bedded in poisonous fear
That it’s not what we thought

Love can be misapprehension
So is it worth all this tension
For those moments of bliss?

I ask you these queries
In aim to calm my worries
That this is really love

the truth

Sometimes I stand
In a light so blinding
I forget darkness
and hold my breath
afraid
it may
all
be
a dream

How I’m Feeling

We were close friends, also lovers
did everything for one another
Now youre gone and Im lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me
Can you feel me
Hear me callin for you Cause its

Its been too long and Im lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said Ive been needinyou,
wantin you
Wonderin if youre the same and whos been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now Im sittin here thinkin âbout you
And the days we used to share
Its drivin me crazy, I dont know what to do
Im just wonderin if you still care
And I wanna let you know that its killin me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby

searching for you

i’ve been searching for you,
i heard a cry within my soul
i never had a yearning quite like this before
all of my life where have you been?
a sacred gift of heaven

Thinking of You

I lay awake in my bed and dream
I think about all the things that make me happy and sad
I think of when my life will be over
I know once I’m done nothing will really matter
The only thing I will really miss is you and your heart
Then I start to think about the in between
Now I realize my life will never end as long as I’m with you

missing you

“missing you is just a part of living. missing you feels like a way of life. i’m living out the life that i’ve been given. but baby i still wish that you were mine.”

It’s gonna be fine

You said goodbye but you can’t be out of sight
Although we never meet, but our memories will remain
You will be always far which is not bad for me
I don’t care if your body isn’t here.. but then It’s gonna be fine
Why would I want your love if it’s not yours
But my Love is mine which I like to keep for while… in this rest life
There is no formula or law which can take it away 

Lovely thought

A lovely thought from a broken heart … “She laughs at my dreams, but I dream only of her laugher”

Missed Love

Why do people leave when they say they will stay? , Why do you love when they only go away? , Why do people forget the most important days? , Why do people laugh, when they really want to cry? , Why is it that when people leave they never say good bye.

Can you explain?

For what we need to apart?
If we love each other oh so hard.
Why we need to say goodbye?
Cos we have problems in our life?
You know, that I love you, as no one else can,
And you know, that I will love you till my end.
But you have to say goodbye…
and We both have to cry…

God, Can you explain me why?

Journey

I search for you
In every direction I take
What a journey I must make
A long road I’m sure
Just looking for a cure
A lonely journey some of us take

What road do I take
Will I make a mistake
A test of faith or my fate

I know your out there
I continue with faith
Hoping not to make a mistake
In the journey I take