Journey

” I’m walking slowly because I was once in a hurry
And I carry this smile because I’ve cried too much “

Direction

I used to feel fine
you were to be mine
I need direction
to take me to you

Honest poetry

I’m sick of this
I’ve been a puppet on your string for too long
You don’t own me
I’m tired of being strong for you
Now
I’m doing it for me
And if I wanna break down
That’s what I’m gonna do.

You kept telling me to stay quiet
Take a back seat
Hold everyone else together
What about me?
Watching everyone fall apart around me
Couldn’t join in
Just watching it all crumble
A lone pillar in the metaphorical destruction

Arguing over petty shit
A car door is metal
There are more important things
Like life
Health
And family
But you don’t seem to care
Don’t tell me to shut up

For the past month
That’s all I’ve done.

Silence from me on the outside
But inside
Nothing but noise
Anger
Destruction
Collapse
Fear
Pain

Watch my façade
It won’t last long
Its getting old
Watch it crumble like the rest of this fucked up situation

Pain?
Pills numb the pain.
But that’s not the answer

I’m in a cyclone speed mental spiral

down
down
down

Need to find the brake before its too late

Too late

too late..

to Girl of My Dreams

In my reality, you are my friend, my companion, and my buddy. Yet, in my dreams, you are my lover, my soul mate, and my girl. Why do you stir my emotions so? How can I get so emotional over a girl so far away? This love that I have for you seems so pure and yet so unnatural. Why do I carry such heavy emotions for someone who sees me as a friend? Your simple beauty is ever present due to your grace and sensitivity. Your long dark hair, thick and lustrous, rests neatly upon your shoulders. Your smooth and simple curves are aligned so well upon your tiny frame. Your warm, gentle smile soothes the torrid seas of my heart and soul. Your voice is as soft and mellow as angel harp strings. I am enchanted by your simple poise and charm. Your strength and resilience is amazing. How can someone so dainty can bear the weight of the world on such small shoulders? A lesser woman would be driven insane and yet, you continue to endure. The arrows of scorn from your parents and the impatient desires of men do not belay you from what is important, your self-respect and future. Your slender arms ache under the weight of heavy trays. Your legs and feet are sore from all the walking.  Oh how I wish I could help carry your burden a little. I feel so helpless sometimes for the sheer fact that I am not close to you. I understand, that your heart belongs to another, yet if this was a different time and circumstance, I would love for us to be together. Yet, the Almighty doesn’t give man too much opportunity in the love department. You are in my prayers as well as my thoughts and dreams. I pray that you will keep your good judgment, that you will never leave me alone, and that you will always be my friend. I long for the day we meet face to face. I will introduce you to my world. To see simple beauty of Mother Nature. You could run and frolic in the field like the flower maiden I see in my dreams. To introduce you to my family and to their home cooking. I can’t seem to get you out of my mind, I think about you all-day and everyday. Even thought my love runs deep, I have nothing but the deepest respect for. Your friendship is more valuable than all my emotions are worth. As long as you are in my dreams, you will never be forgotten. Now as I lay myself down, I begin to see you in my eyes and I know it will be a sweet dream.

Words I Truely Love

We’re drifting apart,

But I won’t give up, no

Wherever you are I belong

Love sings us a song

But we fail to sing along

Wherever you go I will follow

So please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please
don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

And
if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

You
try to be strong

You’ve tried it oh so long

Whatever I do I do it wrong

And love sings our song

So eager to sing along

Whatever you do I know it

So please don’t let it

Please
don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Please don’t let it

Please don’t let it go

Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go

Don’t let go of life

Let
go of love

Let go of all we have

So
don’t let go of trust

Let go of lust

Let go of all we share

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know

The glorious art of staining souls, my darling

We
are not the ones to blame

The more we have the more we want

And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby

It
always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So
keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

When doubts arise the game begins

The one we will never win, my baby

It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending

Our heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s
alright

Come on…

So keep on pretending

Our
heaven is worth the waiting

Keep on pretending, it’s alright

So keep on pretending

It
will be the end of our craving

Keep on pretending

It’s alright

Love is a flame that can’t be tamed

And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling

We are not the ones to blame

Just one look into your eyes

One look and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

Just one kiss and I’m alive

One kiss and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one touch and I’m on fire

One touch and I’m crying

’cause you’re so beautiful

Just one smile and I’m wild

One smile and I’m ready to die

’cause you’re so beautiful

 

My darling

Oh you’re so beautiful

You’re so beautiful

Oh
my baby

You’re so beautiful

And you’re so beautiful

Oh
my darling

Oh my baby

And you’re so beautiful

it’ll be too late

I’m gonna simile like nothing’s wrong …
talk like everything is perfect …
act like its a dream …
and pretend nothing is hurting me …

’cause I’ll find my way..
I know you’ll wake up one day..
but it’ll be too late

The Upset

There seems to be an issue
Left unchecked and yet denied
A promise made without much thought
Now chained we must abide

Still you refuse to realize
The desperateness within my eyes
I wish a way, I wish to find
A safe way to leave you behind

My life would then be empty
For you complete what I am
But your life remains unfinished
While I keep you from His hand

You truely claim that you cannot
Remain to be happy, while I am not
Yet that’s the way that it must be
Since this won’t last because of me

Empty Fire

Tonight’s a burning loneliness
Bleak and empty, cloudless above
The absence of the moon speaks
Of the absence of our love

The coldest of wind in the air
The darkest of black in the sky
Frigid and opaque, the adjectives
That aptly describe you and I

the truth

Sometimes I stand
In a light so blinding
I forget darkness
and hold my breath
afraid
it may
all
be
a dream

How I’m Feeling

We were close friends, also lovers
did everything for one another
Now youre gone and Im lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me
Can you feel me
Hear me callin for you Cause its

Its been too long and Im lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said Ive been needinyou,
wantin you
Wonderin if youre the same and whos been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now Im sittin here thinkin âbout you
And the days we used to share
Its drivin me crazy, I dont know what to do
Im just wonderin if you still care
And I wanna let you know that its killin me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby

searching for you

i’ve been searching for you,
i heard a cry within my soul
i never had a yearning quite like this before
all of my life where have you been?
a sacred gift of heaven

Thinking of You

I lay awake in my bed and dream
I think about all the things that make me happy and sad
I think of when my life will be over
I know once I’m done nothing will really matter
The only thing I will really miss is you and your heart
Then I start to think about the in between
Now I realize my life will never end as long as I’m with you

missing you

“missing you is just a part of living. missing you feels like a way of life. i’m living out the life that i’ve been given. but baby i still wish that you were mine.”

It Would Be Different

I know how depressed you’ve been
And I know how sad you will remain
All you need is someone to hold you
All you want is someone to love
Someone who loves you too
I know all this and I know one more thing
That it would be different
If I was there
To hold you
To love you
I know it would be different
If I was there

It’s gonna be fine

You said goodbye but you can’t be out of sight
Although we never meet, but our memories will remain
You will be always far which is not bad for me
I don’t care if your body isn’t here.. but then It’s gonna be fine
Why would I want your love if it’s not yours
But my Love is mine which I like to keep for while… in this rest life
There is no formula or law which can take it away 

Lovely thought

A lovely thought from a broken heart … “She laughs at my dreams, but I dream only of her laugher”

Missed Love

Why do people leave when they say they will stay? , Why do you love when they only go away? , Why do people forget the most important days? , Why do people laugh, when they really want to cry? , Why is it that when people leave they never say good bye.

You are perfect

I’ll never need any change in you as You’re so perfect
and the precious bond that we share is sooo perfect
though we are seperated by so many miles
though we know we may never meet
No one else in the world can even compare this Love
I can’t turn back time But With you I see present and future
as We are always togethor forever
You’ll know How perfect you are when seen through my eyes
I can wait for the fate to show you How lovely you are
You are that someone special & a true miracle to me
Across the oceans, mountain peaks, time and space
You kept my heart alive & love survive

Can you explain?

For what we need to apart?
If we love each other oh so hard.
Why we need to say goodbye?
Cos we have problems in our life?
You know, that I love you, as no one else can,
And you know, that I will love you till my end.
But you have to say goodbye…
and We both have to cry…

God, Can you explain me why?

Because of you

Because of you
my world is now whole

Because of you
love lives in my soul

Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes

Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes

You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.

My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you’ll always be mine.

At the altar
I will joyously say ‘I do’,
for I have it all now
and it’s all because of you.

by Amy S. Bedford

LOST OF LOVE

I have a dream
the dream of freedom
Freedom that seems not easy
not easy to face with in my life every day
Every day that made me weak
weak in facing all the things i have to say thank
Thanks on evey challenges
challenges that make my life moves
Moving on all moment happens
happens in every depeating moment of damns
Damns as i was called myself
Myself that was so unlift
Unlift on every dreams i want
want to be one for they might felt

Journey

I search for you
In every direction I take
What a journey I must make
A long road I’m sure
Just looking for a cure
A lonely journey some of us take

What road do I take
Will I make a mistake
A test of faith or my fate

I know your out there
I continue with faith
Hoping not to make a mistake
In the journey I take

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

LOVE IS IN THE AIR,
WE CAN SPREAD IT EVERYWHERE
LOVE IS LIKE THE FLU
YOU GIVE IT TO ME
I GIVE IT TO U
LOVE MEANS US TOGETHER
BUT ONLY FOREVER
WHEN THERE IS LOVE
THERE ARE NO LIES

ONLY US WHO CAN SATISFIE
NO MORE CRIES
NO MORE TEARS TO DRY
JUST ME AND YOU AND LOVE TOO!

you and me

Sometimes it’s hard to say,
But know I miss you every day.
I wish you came soon to me,
And we’ll be happy only you and me.

For you…

My heart aches For you…

My soul is dying For you…

It’s been a really long time
We haven’t yet met

I want to you to know
You were not a dream; no

Oh My dearest darling
I Miss you
I am in Love

Sometimes I feel so empty now…
But I know my Love is never weak
It will lasts forever I know

and

I know You miss me too

and

I know you will remember me too

OH God
I beg you
Please just fufill my wish
My one and only desire…
I want to be with my Angel now,
Before I close my eyes,
forever…

OH God
I know you are there

Dreamed

I have dreamed thee too long
Never seen thee or touched thee
but known thee with all of my heart
Half a prayer, half a song
Thou hast always been with me though
we have been always apart

Joe Darion
Dulcinea, from the musical “Man Of La Mancha”

When Do We Meet?

Will it be in the twilight hour?
fate interceding
will it be in profusion of delight
some call it love
skeptics destiny?
let me inhale from garden of roses
to be reminded that, ah
you were mine
just for those few palpitating moments
as you resonated swirled-with the world around you.

- ANANYA GUHA

( http://www.art-arena.com/asguha.htm )