Foever Gone

rising as the somke
off my cigarette
comming up from the depths
of the coldest heart
lost in the wind that sweeps us away
my soul vanishes
into thin air
love gone
life belittled
gone forever never
form you again
to the end i’m gone
forever never again

Melancholy

I used to be okay,
I used to be strong.
But the walls around me crumbled,
And my life became wrong.
The lies crept in on silent feet.
Poisoning my neurotic mind,
Slowly wrapping me in defeat.
I lied when I said I didn’t love you.
I lied when I said I could move on.
I lied when I said you didn’t matter,
And I lied when I said it didn’t hurt.
You were the catalyst,
Detroying everything in sight.
You broke me down,
And I was too weak to fight.
Now you are gone,
Yet your corrosive effect remains.
I await within my insanity to see you again,
For my blood to race and my heart stop.
I’m just dying for you to get on top.
Own me, control me, violate me.
End the aching and just…
Take me for all I can be.
I surrender myself completely;
Mind, body, and soul.
But you had your chance,
And my weakened morals were worth nothing.
It was simply a meaningless, tormenting dance.
What you still want, I shall never know.
But I would wait for you till the end of eternity,
If only you would tell me so.

In a moment of weakness

In a moment of weakness
I turned to you

In a moment of weakness
You let me through

You held me close with broken wings
I can hear your laughter as the devil sings

In a moment of weakness,
you healed my soul
yet tore me apart

In a moment of weakness
you made me whole
but broke my heart

In a moment of weakness
I let you go

From my moment of weakness
I’m all alone…

We become alive

I’m lonely
But then
Aren’t you lonely too?

Come then
Walk along with me
And though we but travel
A short while together
We become more alive in each other
Changing what might have been
Into something
That lends a deep meaning
To life itself

And though we but travel
A short while together
I think perhaps
You are with me forever.

Journey

” I’m walking slowly because I was once in a hurry
And I carry this smile because I’ve cried too much “

Loneliness and togetherness…

You and I are both lonely,
Lost in our own worlds,
Trying to find ourselves,
Trying to find each other.
A sweet dream it would be,
To awaken in your arms,
To be able to kiss your lips,
To have such a precious gift.

I yearn for your company,
Though we are lost in what to do,
Lost in our own worlds,
Let us be lost together.

Take my hand and bid farewell
To confusion and the loneliness,
You and I will finally be one,
Living within our own sweet love.

Direction

I used to feel fine
you were to be mine
I need direction
to take me to you

A Book of Memories

Hidden in the attic,
all the way upstairs,
is something very special,
that I would like to share.
My hopes,
my dreams,
old photographs,
of good times and bad times that make me laugh.
The joy of a hug,
the thrill of a kiss,
leaves me to remember the pure, simple bliss.
I cry for the fun,
and giggle for the pain,
I enjoyed the good life I was able to maintain.
The thoughts and wishes,
they all stay with me,
all of these contained in my book of memories.

My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

The Upset

There seems to be an issue
Left unchecked and yet denied
A promise made without much thought
Now chained we must abide

Still you refuse to realize
The desperateness within my eyes
I wish a way, I wish to find
A safe way to leave you behind

My life would then be empty
For you complete what I am
But your life remains unfinished
While I keep you from His hand

You truely claim that you cannot
Remain to be happy, while I am not
Yet that’s the way that it must be
Since this won’t last because of me

Empty Fire

Tonight’s a burning loneliness
Bleak and empty, cloudless above
The absence of the moon speaks
Of the absence of our love

The coldest of wind in the air
The darkest of black in the sky
Frigid and opaque, the adjectives
That aptly describe you and I

Queries

How many times
Has it been
That you have given up
Everything

The love that you gained
Was it worth all the pain
Of letting go?

I’d like to feel
That what we have is real
Enough for me to do the same.

Don’t leave me lying here
Bedded in poisonous fear
That it’s not what we thought

Love can be misapprehension
So is it worth all this tension
For those moments of bliss?

I ask you these queries
In aim to calm my worries
That this is really love

How I’m Feeling

We were close friends, also lovers
did everything for one another
Now youre gone and Im lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me
Can you feel me
Hear me callin for you Cause its

Its been too long and Im lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said Ive been needinyou,
wantin you
Wonderin if youre the same and whos been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now Im sittin here thinkin âbout you
And the days we used to share
Its drivin me crazy, I dont know what to do
Im just wonderin if you still care
And I wanna let you know that its killin me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby

searching for you

i’ve been searching for you,
i heard a cry within my soul
i never had a yearning quite like this before
all of my life where have you been?
a sacred gift of heaven